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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 01:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

How can I stop drinking?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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He resisted the act ,that day.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I will be 64.

Hi, I’m Jo. My best friend died 2 years ago today. My husband died 6 months later. So, I’m a depressed mess (we were married 28 years) and can’t shake it. Even my Brother is worried. Some days I don’t do anything, and avoid men cause I don’t want to date. Any suggestions? Thanks for reading.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

What is your favourite colour and why?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

How often do you watch the news on TV?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I was 9 years of age.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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(And it was in our own minds.)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She wouldn,t have been !

How do you handle family members who ask for handouts?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

What real evidence is there to believe in legends such as the story of Atlandida or the lost continent of Lemuria?

But, we were locked up after school.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She loved him until the end.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Who then, do I blame.?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I was very sick at this time too.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My life is so biszare .

Im still living with it.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

This is soul school!.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

So whats the point in blame.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

When she asked me how she looked .

My family never makes their pension either.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I was scared of men, in general

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I write beautiful poetry .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I said to her

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We were not on the streets..

Comes on , in middle age.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was seconnd youngest,

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Put me off passion for life!!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

It was going to be , some day.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

What did i know ?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I think the readers, may guess!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Ive learnt so much.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But ive been too sick for many years..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I have no regrets .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I don,t even have a pension.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I could never make a relationship work though!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She found it foreign!.

But it wasn’t much.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

She married twice! .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Would this be the day?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As i do to all so called friends.?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Why did i forgive my father ?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We all went to grammer schools

He knew the spot.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

All the time i was locked up.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One cannot live in the past .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I waited trembling.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She was in good health!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And i lived it daily.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

So, i spoilt her more .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!